Deeyah's blog

Today i woke up, brush my teeth, did skincare, tidy my bed, did laundry, exercise, ate breakfast and vaccum the house. Then i took a shower and went out with my family.  Then about 3 hours later, i got home and thought about... how i feel like i don't know what to do in life. Like- i take a look around and it just feels like everyone knows what to do in their life. So i decided to search for answers on the internet; "Is it ok to not know what we want in life?" And i saw a video, read the comments and felt comforted that i wasn't alone.  It's absolutely okay to not know. There isn't a specific age where people have it all figured out. Most people don’t know what they want to do. They just pick/explore something, stick with it long enough and if they like it, it just becomes something that they do in life. 

2025 wasn’t the best year. I spent a lot of time doing deep self-reflection. At first, I thought it was a good thing. I wanted to understand myself better. But somewhere along the line, it became emotionally and mentally exhausting. My thoughts started becoming like: Why do I think this? Why do I react like that? What should I fix? What do others think about me? Why did I say that to him? Why did i say that to her?  At this point, I wasn’t reflecting anymore. I was spiraling. Understanding myself matters. But living my life matters too.